So here it is.
Jaxon’s last regular week day at home with me. I am happy one moment, and crying the next. When I started my single Mom journey over two years ago, I hoped and prayed that every decision I would make would be the right one.
And please don’t get me wrong, married Mammas feel the same, but when it’s just you being the Mamma and the Daddy in your child’s every day life there is this big, heavy desire to do the right thing that overshadows everything.
I constantly question myself and my decisions for our little life. I am far from perfect and I’ve plenty of mistakes in my single Mom journey. I mess up daily. But God has tucked us under his wing and we continue to flourish.
Over two years after my divorce, we are thriving. And here we are, at the moment of change and I can see how blessed we are.
If you would have told me last year at this time, that I would be where I am now, I probably would have laughed at you. No, I would have for sure laughed at you. Not that I don’t believe that God will bless you more than you can imagine.
Oh no. I’m fully aware that God will cover your life in Grace and Love…especially if you are a single Mamma. I’ve had big miracles in my life. And I believe in God’s Amazing Grace.
But I would never have believed I could get through grad school. Or, that I could move to an entirely different town…and thrive. And that I could lead a FULL life of happiness and faith.
And lately I don’t feel like I share that enough with you guys. I’ve had readers tell me I say “single Mom” too much and so I quit talking about my struggles and my victories on this journey for a long time. But as I cried my eyes out in a moment with God in prayer today…I realized this is my blog. This is my space. If I say “single Mom” too much and it bothers you than you can choose not to read it.
But yes I will talk about it. I will blog about it. Each day I face challenges that are scary and challenge my faith. I don’t have someone to co-parent a child with….or co-navigate through this life with. The fact that there is food on the table and bills are paid…most months is a blessing and miracle in itself. And I will never agonize or belly-ache and use my blog space as a means for being negative about my situation…but I will use it to voice my victories and my faith.
Sometimes we may laugh about the messes our kids make…or we might even cry about the pain and challenges of being a Mamma. Whatever we talk about here in Easie Peasie land will be of love and light.
Right now we are about to step into a new chapter of our life. Jaxon is starting Montessori school on Monday and I start my second year as a grad student. In addition to my photography company, I am working as a graduate assistant on campus. What a big BLESSING!! My ultimate goal is to earn a Ph.D. in English, and this opens up a bigger opportunity for that goal. But with my new work…comes new school adventures for my love bug.
To start something new and make changes, you let go of the past. This week was my last week with my little man at home with me. He has grown little wings…and it’s time for my little baby to fly.
I enjoyed this last painting project with Jax…before he begins his new school journey. And it made me realize how far we’ve come…and how much we are so blessed.
We are ready. We embrace this new season of our lives.
God is so good. We are so very blessed.
Thank you for your love and support and most of all for your prayers. My blog friends and readers are my most precious treasures. We share so much….and unite to create a better world around us.
BIG hugs and love from and my little guy!! Say a prayer for us!! I think he’ll totally rock school…it will be his Mamma that cries for days as we transition!! =)
XoXo,
Tiffany
