With grace…

I survived my day yesterday! Whooohooo!

Being here….

was not exciting…or fun. In fact there were moments I was sure I might pass out. When I was sitting in the awful chair…hooked up to the stat machine…my heart rate kept going up and down. They really shouldn’t leave oral surgery tools out for you to see…or the sound turned up on those machines….so you can literally HEAR your anxiety. Ha ha ha h!

I did have a funny moment. The mural on the wall…you know the ones meant to relax you…ha ha ha ha…looked like Walden Pond! So because I have spent so much time learning about Thoreau in my grad class this semester…I tried to imagine I was at Walden Pond when the needles were being jabbed in my jaw! It didn’t really help…but I did laugh about it later!

I really am so blessed that I was able to even have medical attention yesterday. Single Mom budgets aren’t exactly equipped for major medical problems…thank GOD I have such a supportive circle of friends and family. I couldn’t not have made it the past 2 weeks without them. And Dr. Gilbert was just precious. He did some extra helping too. Love him!!! And what a blessing!

If you need an oral surgeon in the West Texas area ---- there’s just no comparison! Yes --- I took pictures of his business card and texted them to the people I know need to know him! Ha ha ha!! He’s that amazing!

And you know my best helper was there too….waiting on Mamma!

 

This was before we left……

In the waiting room…..

And after the day was over on our way home….

If I had a picture of myself….I felt the same way! Worn out!!! My Mom helped soooo much. She even bought me Jason’s Deli Green Chili Corn Chowder…my favorite…and so soothing at the end of a day after oral surgery! It was perfect!

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This entire ordeal has really made me look at my heart and at my life. Funny how God does that right? If you won’t stop….he’ll find a way to make you STOP and listen.

The holidays are my worst time of the year. I seriously dislike them. I used to love them…but with a broken family now…it’s not easy. Jaxon’s Dad and I have really started to work well together balancing his time with both sides of the family…but even though we do all we can…there’s still that twinge of pain…knowing this isn’t how you  meant it to be. It can be a really big hole of negativity that I fall into and this year I’ve made a conscious effort not to do it.

We have SO MUCH to be thankful for…we are so blessed. Our life isn’t picture perfect…but we are blessed. Last year I really struggled with the whole Christmas gift issue. It was all I could do to keep a roof over our heads and food in our bellies. We weren’t suffering by any means…but I couldn’t shower Jaxon in gifts like I wished. This year…will be the same…if not harder. But this year my heart has grown. Our Advent calendar this year will be to celebrate the little things…to celebrate our life…and our blessings. It might only be hot chocolate in a Christmas coffee cup…or a craft we make together…or a free parade. No matter how small our little holiday celebrations might be…we are celebrating our blessings big and small….and not in materialistic ways.

I saw this video today [[and bawled my eyes out]]…and it solidified by intentions for Christmas this year. Not once…have I ever been homeless. Not once did my son not have a safe home, or a warm bubble bath, or warm, home-cooked meals. We have more than we really deserve….and we will share our blessings this season and be grateful for all that we have.

Before the holidays get you down…or you allow that Mamma urge to feel guilty about not getting every single thing you think your kids want…watch this video. It will put everything in perspective.

 

God is so good. We are all so blessed…and this is the time to celebrate that goodness…and share our blessings with everyone we can!!

XoXo